Dealing With A Cancer Recurrence
I wasn’t going to write about this. I didn’t want this latest development to define me. I didn’t want this blog, my sanctuary, to be all things cancer again. I was also worried about boring all of you. Saying all of this, I’ve received a flurry of messages from people and that has changed my mind. Plus, I have to admit that as little as I may want this cancer to be part of my life, it is.
Lucky
What should be a simple 7 minute journey in the car is much longer today. Thick fog has rolled in covering the island in a heavy blanket that obliterates my view. I drive to school slowly, hunched over my steering wheel as drizzle splatters the windscreen. Every turning or junction filling me with trepidation as I half expect to see a juggernaut suddenly looming out of the fog. As I drive back (Youngest safely deposited at school), the silence sits with me, swaddling my chest tightly.
Sorry
I’m sorry for being absent and being such a tardy blogger. Life’s strange. We are still in a pandemic and I find myself unwilling to add to the conversation. What can I possibly say that is meaningful or insightful or even vaguely reassuring?
Walking Away From It All
I carefully place one foot in front of the other, my eyes not leaving the narrow path. Far beneath me I can hear the waves crashing against the cliff face. I daren’t look though. The drop to the swirling sea below is sheer and looking over the edge will just make my head feel dizzy and my stomach swim. Instead, I continue to focus on just moving slowly along the path.
A Summer Well Spent
Firstly, before I delve into my usual rambles I must offer you a heartfelt apology. I am so sorry that I have been absent from this little space.
Life in Lockdown
This must have been the longest I have gone without writing a blog. These are unusual times.
Am I Standing Still?
I find myself at a bit of a crossroads. Every direction I look there is an unknown road spiralling away from me. It doesn’t scare me but I do feel overwhelmed. I’m feeling the pressure to make this year count. But how? What should I do?
How are you?
“How are you?” The question came from a friend and for one breathless gulp I was tempted to let the mask slip. I thought about telling her how I really was, but I looked and saw that the “how are you?” didn’t require an honest answer.
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